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“I never lost as much but twice, And that was in the sod; Twice have I stood a beggar Before the door of God!”
Two deaths are remembered as losses so severe that the speaker figures herself as spiritually impoverished and dependent before God.
Source note: Poem in Poems: First Series (1890), represented by its opening line for source disambiguation; Project Gutenberg #12242. Its theological language belongs to the lyric speaker.